I have been trying to post pics of my fabulously colorful time at the Festival of Colors, but my computer at work is totally LAME-O, but I will figure it out somehow. I bought kites for my students and it was about the most fun you can have for a dollar. The kids were uberexcited! I love them.

The last few weeks or so it feels like a grey gloomy cloud has taken residence over my head and has decided to stay there. I have been down. I just can't seem to shake it. I have been sad about a friendship that is pretty much over. I know relationships end and maybe this one just ran its course, but I still miss it. I am dreading my looming 36th birthday and just want to hide in my bed all day with the covers or my head and not even think about the fact that I am 36 and single. I have just been feeling lonely, fat, ugly, and unworthy of a lot of things. I know pretty much a debbie downer.

But, I realized today that God is pretty fantastic and that He steps in when I am feeling this way. He lets me know, in His own way, that not only am I not alone, but I am also loved. For example: The parent of one of my former student's always gives me a hug whenever she sees me. I love that. I love her for that. It makes me feel super great. My assistant gave me a birthday card. It was so sweet because he not only wished me a happy birthday, but he also told me some really nice things that I needed to hear. One of my cute part timers gave me a birthday gift. I thought it was beyond nice that she even thought of me. I realized that my students love me. They call my name about 500 times in a day and yes, sometimes it drives me crazy, but I got to thinking that they call MY name 500 times a day and they ask ME for help and they ask ME for treats and they come to ME for comfort when they get kicked in the junk by another student and they want ME to watch when they eat their veggies at lunch. They love me. I am crazy about them.


I am just super duper grateful for the moments when I lift my head up and look through the grey gloomy cloud and notice those precious moments that God has given me.

Not having a computer at home is kind of a bummer. I am going to have to work on that. So, I am at the library daily to check my emails and such. I wanted to write a post about Josh Duhamel and how adorable I think he is and if I were Katherine Heigl (Yep, I just saw Life as we know it...super cute!) I would NOT be able to keep my hands off him. Yum! But, the library won't let me save pictures. I guess they don't want cute pictures of Josh tainting their computers. Whatever.

But, what I can say is the guy sitting next to me is a VERY loud nose breather. Maybe he should get that checked. I'm just saying.

Over and out!

Oh, and I am in love with my new apartment. The living room is so adorable. In my next life I am going to become an interior decorator because I LOVE IT!!